Saturday, August 29, 2009
Can we just look at all the facets of this picture? First of all, sitting on the floor to eat a mix of cheerios and goldfish just doesn't cut it any more. He has to eat them on the fire place. In order to get up there he has to put the cup up there first, then use all 4 limbs to climb the foot off the floor that is our fireplace, then get all situated before picking the cup back up to eat. Then there is Daisy. She practically smothers him to get at all the pieces that don't quite make it to his mouth. Finally there is the direction of his eyes. If you knew me personally and have been to my house, then you know what he is looking at. The TV. Does life get any better for a baby? A good snack, a good show, no clothes, and a new outlook on life (you know, a more elevated one).
OH. He's also walking.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Whilst at Wal Mart I got a call from the oral surgeon's office about costs of the surgery. Holy moly it turned into a slight ordeal. I have coverage from my old dental insurance until August 31st, and new coverage from Cody's work starts Sept. 1st, but the new insurance wouldn't talk to the surgeon's office until my coverage started. I ended up calling FOUR TIMES to the insurance, and FOUR TIMES to the surgeon's office, but I think I've got it worked out.
So now on to the dinner. I made home made meat ball subs, and they were sooooo yummy! I had no idea it was so easy to make meatballs, I will definitely be doing that again. Plus I have an extra pound of hamburger meat in the freezer that I have no idea what to do with. And I have three meat balls left over for one more sandwich. I would have it for lunch tomorrow, but my new friend Taylor is coming over and I'm making chicken salad. My favorite!
And now to continue with the nostalgia theme:
Luke was about 3 months in this picture. I took it just for the bib. We are Texans through and through.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Not a relevant picture. Just being nostalgic. Luke at 4 days old:
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Melanie and David are a couple that we have known from college, and they had their little girl, Madison, three days after Luke arrived. They have been in town for the last month and we just finally got to hang out tonight. It was so fun! Plus Madison and Luke flirted with each other off and on, so that was fun too. ;)
Last week I thought I was possibly pregnant and while I was waiting for the results I had a chance to get past the freak-out and get excited. It turns out I wasn't, and while I am complete sold on the fact that this is not a good time for us, it didn't take away from the fact that I was disappointed about not getting to be pregnant again. So I've been trying to think of all the good things about not being knocked up.
-I don't have to tell my friends who are having trouble conceiving that I'm accidentally pregnant again. (I have two friends who want babies and are in my prayers, my heart is so heavy for them.)
-Cody and I are not stable enough to withstand another major change.
-I don't have to feel guilty, like it's all my fault.
-I wouldn't be able to pay for it.
-My insurance runs out next week.
-I'm not going to get fat.
-I don't have to drink water.
-I can continue to rely solely on coffee and Dr. Pepper to quench my thirst.
-I won't have to try and nurse due to the inability to afford formula.
-I don't have to go through the guest room and figure out where to put everything so the baby could have that room.
-I can have sushi whenever I want.
-I don't have to stress about whether I will be lucky enough to miss the stretch-mark boat again.
-In 8 months I'll still be able shave my legs.
-In 9 months I won't have to give birth.
Nope. A part of me is still disappointed. Just don't tell Cody.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Also today I had to take D Dog to the vet. *sigh* There was $125 I would have rather spent on something else. I even took her to the vet completely dirty. The girl hasn't had a bath in weeks, not to mention her condition the last few days. The vet wasn't exactly sure of what was wrong with her, but she got fluids for being slightly dehydrated and pills to help her colon. Also I was told that she should really stay indoors in a bathroom or somewhere with tile as opposed to outside because of the heat and how small she is. She HATES being pinned up in the kitchen and will cry and whine about it, but that's her new home right now. She even cowers when she sees me get out the baby gate.
I was watching TV just now before going to bed and I realized I hadn't heard her pathetically whimpering in a while. I crept over the baby gate and this is where I found her.
Those are actually clean clothes she is sleeping on. More specifically LUKE'S clean clothes that I hadn't put away yet. I guess that's what I get not putting her bed in with her and for leaving the laundry room door open. Anyone want to come an extra load of laundry for me?
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Back to the present- so when I walked in to the living room all I could see where a couple of pieces of poo and I thought "Bummer. No big deal, but I'm glad it's not terrible." THEN I walked around the side of the couch. It was awful. This poor dog couldn't even make it off the couch and made a horrendous mess everywhere. Plus she had smeared it all over the floor. Cody was taking a shower, so I ran into the bathroom and almost threw up on him as I begged for him to get out and clean it up. There was NO WAY I was able to....the smell was over whelming. Even now when I shut my eyes I can still see it and have a strong desire to gag. Awesome Sunday huh?
Not wanting to end on a nasty note, I put some stuff in a good friend's garage sale. Said good friend is moving to Abilene (noooooooooooooooooo!!!!!) and needed to purge before boxing up. I made $35 off of junk I was sick of looking at! I am not sure what I'm going to spend my hard earned money on. And when I mean hard earned, I mean I sat from 7:30-11 visiting with friends and eating donuts. Donuts were my contribution. They thought I was being nice, but really I would have just felt really guilty if I had shown up with donuts just for me and chowed down while they stared longingly at my fried pastry goodness.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
The first thing I did (besides spend some time face-down in the carpet) was get out my Strong's Exhaustive Concordance. If you don't have one, GET ONE! It's amazing how the same scripture read over and over will change once you find out what one little word means. Not knowing where to start in my bible, I just happened to flip to Philemon. I started reading and came to verse 6: "and I pray that the sharing of your faith may become effective for the full knowledge...." Now I had always just assumed it meant sharing as in evangelizing. But something told me to look that word up. It actually means to have "fellowship, the close association between persons, emphasizing what is common between them". How cool is that! As if I really needed another reason to fellowship with my brothers and sister in Christ.
But this is where the Lord really spoke to me. This is why I was meant to read the bible today. Here is verses 14-16:
"but I preferred to do nothing without our consent in order that your goodness might not be by compulsion but of your own free will. For this perhaps is why he was parted from you for a while, that you might have him back forever, no longer as a slave but more than a slave, as a beloved brother-especially to me, but how much more to you, both in the flesh and in the Lord."
How desperately I needed to hear that. Those words were a healing salve on my broken heart. As soon as I read them I was just overcome with emotion, I'm even crying again just rereading them. Cody and I will be okay. He will come back to me. I KNOW it. God is working some things out in us, and he will be mine forever. But not only mine forever, he will be stronger in the Lord. Thank you Jesus for speaking to deep wounds and having grace that is sufficient enough and strength that is renewed each morning.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
And here is today:
But this smile tells me he doesn't care too much:
He had a good nap that I had to wake him up from- I'm trying not to let him sleep past 4 any more so that he is ready for bed at night. So mean! He had really worn himself out throwing fits at the mall playground today. Luke has this one really harsh mom that won't let him crawl out the front gate alone or play with other people's strollers. Oh the crying that was involved. Then tonight I made him eat the dreaded spaghetti again. This is how he told me how he felt, and this time there were actual tears involved:
Monday, August 17, 2009
Cody has been gone all weekend, but he comes home tonight. Whew! I missed that kid, and I'm totally drained from a weekend of single parenting. Not to mention he wasn't here to see Luke take some of his first steps. I got three out of him today before he realized what was going on and sat down! Cody was supposed to be home last night, but finally at 12 AM I called his BFF (because Cody's phone had died of course) to find out where they were and they were still at the Gulf! I refrained from making any snide "thanks for the heads-up" comments and just told him I would see him today as cheerfully as I could.
Also on Saturday I whipped up this:
It only took me about 1 1/2 hours to make it! That's including drawing and cutting out the letters. I'm trying to get faster and better. Here's a close up of the letters:
Luke has used it after bath time the last couple of days, so I'm interested to see how it holds up in the wash. Speaking of bath...we have a new favorite game:
I like to call it "let me throw everything out of the tub filled with water and create a flood on the floor". Beware- I hear it's catching on like crazy in the mid-west. Where is the mid-west anyway? Could Oregon be considered the mid west? It's the middle stated on the west coast. Hmm. That really is a toughie. Have I mentioned I'm drained? Hence the reason for "blah". Thank goodness I didn't have to go back to work today. Today was the first day back for teachers, and it was odd that almost everyone I know was at work, yet I was at the mall trying on glasses. More about that next week. Ashley and I took Mom out for ice cream when she was done today. That was a tradition that we had growing up; on our first day back to school Mom would always take us to Braum's for ice cream, so we surprised her today. Yummmm...who doesn't like ice cream 2 hours before dinner?
Friday, August 14, 2009
I didn't create this, I am not kidding. How can it not be a good day after a coffee smiley face? At 11 we went to the pool with my dad, whom Luke just adores. It's so funny to see him get all giddy about his Papa! Mom got there late because her school had orientation today. We stayed at the pool until 12:45, so I'm hoping this momma has more of a tan tomorrow than I did yesterday. When we got home from the pool I fed Luke lunch, where I had a brilliant moment to let him feed applesauce to himself while I unloaded the dishwasher. Here's what I got when I turned back around.
Do you see where the spoon is? What was I thinking? Although, I don't think he minded the mess too much.
I am pretty sure it will be years before I let him feed applesauce to himself again. He had to get a bath to get it all off. He finally went down for his nap at 1:15 and he didn't get up until 5:30. Child wore himself out! What did I do during this luxurious nap time? Nothing, just like I predicted. Then we played and I cut out the letters of his name to make a hooded towel for him. It's a double win- I get to practice stitching around letters some more and he gets a cute new towel. And now I'm wondering if I should go take the toys out of his crib, because instead of going to sleep I am currently listening to him loudly tell them something very important.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
We had a great time with our friends tonight! I don't know why we don't have people over more often. It was so nice to sit and visit forever, and not have the rush of someone waiting to turn over your table (plus I didn't have to wear shoes). We sat and talked until 10. On a school night! Well, I guess more of a work night. For them. Not me. Anyway, thanks for coming over Katy and Brandon!
Now on a totally different note, my sister gave me her Proactive face stuff last week to use, she is switching to something else. While the Proactive has taken care of my dire blackhead situation, a battle I have fought winlessly for years on my nose and chin, it's not doing anything for the actual pimple I have. Is it too soon to tell if it's not going to work? Don't tell me this is one of those things that has to get worse before it gets better. I already had to quit using my wrinkle cream because it made me break out. How wrong is that. I either have a wrinkle and no zits, or a slightly less noticeable wrinkle and several zits. Not a choice I should have to make. Anyway, I think I'm just going to wear a bee keepers hat and not worry about what I'm using on my face. Then no one will see the wrinkle, the zits, OR the blackheads. Problem solved.
This picture has nothing to do with my post, I just love it. It's his 6 month picture.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
But that's just a cabinet, you say. Ahh, how looks can be deceiving. It actually unfolds to this!
After I finished the bag I tried to get caught up on some housework because we are having some friends over for dinner tomorrow night. I cleaned both bathrooms and have done 3 loads of laundry, along with making dinner and going to church tonight. What did you say? Oh yes, I am super mom.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Another thing I have started is Beth Moore's Breaking Free book. I tried to read it once before, but only got a couple of chapters into it before life caught up with me and stole my interest. This time is different though. I have wholeheartedly committed myself to memorizing the scripture that goes with it, ashamed at what little scripture I know by heart seeing I've gone to church my entire life. The study is exactly what I need. Cody and I still struggle in our marriage and I can tell that being more open in God's word has a profound positive impact on us. This thing that we are in, it's almost like an addiction- when we are good we are really, really good...but when we are bad, oh, it's so bad. To help hide the Word in my heart I've put my ring of index cards where I've written different verses on my wallet cord. When we are at the store I try and read Luke a couple of different verses as we walk around and I practice the ones I am trying to commit to memory. My biggest fear is raising a son that is wishy washy in the Lord (well, my biggest fear after my fear of losing my husband). I hope that setting these examples now will impact him in the future and he will be a better man for it.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Notice the hand in mid air- it's my attempt to keep that finger out of his mouth whilst the shutter is clicking. The next picture is his absolute favorite thing to do while we're there. This, and try and take strange ladies cell phones. We have no stranger danger.
-Saturday: I took myself out to Ft. Worth to the Cabbage Rose fabric shop. Ohhhh, I was in heaven. I could have sat in that place and dreamed of all the things to make forever. I went in for two yards of vintage western fabric to decorate a denim bag for toys, but of course I saw some amazing things and came home with this instead:
The packet is a pattern for a bag. Eek! I've never used a pattern before, I generally just sit down and make stuff. But I spent about 5x what I meant to so this bag better turn out perfect. Good thing Cody doesn't read this, he might be a little upset. Mom is letting me borrow her sewing machine so hopefully in a week or so Luke will have a new bag to take toys to church or where ever in!
-Sunday: This morning I actually let Luke wear shorts to church. But he had a cute new brown oxford on, khaki shorts, and brown leather loafers, so I thought he looked super handsome. I wanted to get a picture, but I will next time. 10 minutes into the service I had a bad mommy moment where Luke took a tumble into the isle, made a loud THUNK on the floor with the back of his head, and immediately started screaming. I scooped him up and ran out the back door, horrified at what just happened. *sigh* Tonight was the going away party for a couple at church, who have sold everything to move to China and be missionaries for a year. They have a son that is a month younger than Luke, so he's sad his friend is going away. :( I did get a picture of us before we left though. Kelly always has such cute pictures of herself and her daughter, so I thought I better up the anti.
Friday, August 7, 2009
I've been wearing it for a few years now, but I've gone through lots to find my love. For instance, CK1 will always be the scent of middle school. I thought I was so cool wearing it, and I needed those cool points because I was the dorkiest kid ever. It pains me to see the pictures. High school was all about body spray- you could get 50 for the price of perfume and smell different every day. The idea of "signature" hadn't quite dawned on me yet.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
After our hospital visit Luke and I did a little shopping. I'm in the market to get some new glasses, but I really don't want to take the time to pick anything out. Which is silly because I really have nothing but time. Just the thought of having to figure out what frames to get makes me tired. Then we went to the fabric store to look for something for me to make Luke a bag with. I have the picture in my head of what I want- vintage cowboy- but the selection was very disappointing . Anyone know of any good fabric shops in the area? If I'm going to start making things I need a good selection!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
A boy will do that to you. This is Luke at Halloween, he was 4 months old, and he's sitting on our red couch. I used to be obsessed with red, and it will come in handy because the color hides a multitude of sins. We've already tested that out. But I'm on my way to being done with warm reds and have moved on to the cooler palettes.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Although, I'm pretty sure he was faking the tears and the tantrums, because I did get this picture too.
I think I'm in trouble.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
This picture didn't scan in so well, but it's my favorite one of all. I have this one blown up in the living room. Our pictures weren't digital, so I only have a few of them on the computer that we scanned in years ago.
Yes, my cake was blue. I designed it myself, drawing out each tier of swirlys for the decorator!